Forgot to Breath

Laying here holding my breath because somewhere along the way I've forgotten how to breathe.  My eyes are closed to hide from the rage that fills my vision.  Covering my ears to block out the noises that ring in my head.  I bite my tongue to keep it in place, knowing it only seeks to destroy that which I so desperately want to resolve. The thoughts pound through my mind like an unwanted stampede, racing this way and that, with no way to rein it all in.  I search for an answer, a way to make it stop, but all I find is a barrage of chaos aimed at tearing me apart.  I no longer know how to respond or which way to turn. Every time I feel like I have it figured out, my world seems to collapse around me and I'm left behind, grasping for some level of sanity, and praying for my survival.