Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Maternal Observations

Ever growing, ever changing, ever evolving. This is the nature of humanity. Sometimes we are forced to step outside of ourselves and see where we fit into this puzzle. Sometimes we are the leader, the one who sets the path and marches to the beat of our own drum. Sometimes we are the follower, listening desperately for the drum beat and rushing to find the path that someone else has created. However, most of the time we are actually the drum, responsible for setting the pace and creating the beat, even when we have no clue what is going on. To successfully navigate through this world, you have to be comfortable with all of these roles, and knowing when you need to fill them. Becoming a mother has changed my life more than anything in the world ever could. Never before have I felt so loved and important, or so terrified and incompetent. My son has truly shown me that sometimes I have to set the path for him and show him what to do, but other times I have to follow his lead, and he'll teach me how things work. I have no doubt in my mind that he will grow to be an amazing man. I only hope that I can be half as an amazing woman as he deserves to have as a mommy.