I had absolutely every intention of posting a blog about something yesterday...and then I got home from work...and forgot. Yep, so thus far I've stuck to my 2 post a week pledge, but I've had a little trouble keeping the dates solidly Monday, Wednesday. Oops! At least they're getting put up right?
So overall, life is pretty fantastic right now. That's hard to believe with the lovely Car Adventure I just took, but I was able to pay for that repair and make it home to my family so I'm definitely not going to let that get me down.
Classes have started up again, and I have to say that I'm not nearly as stressed out about it as I have been in the past (catch me again on Finals week to have me eat those words). I've done really well in my classes and graduation is in sight for the future. That's a really incredible feeling. By next spring I should have my Bachelor's degree in my hand. It's a goal that I have had since I was a little kid and it makes me incredibly proud to be headed toward completion. I also found out today that I managed to make the Dean's List for last semester. I'd say that's pretty awesome considering everything I hold on my plate.
I also really enjoy my job and feel like I do it well. There are days where I leave feeling defeated of course, but overall I think I know what I am doing and I feel like I'm appreciated by my supervisors. That alone is a huge part of my job satisfaction and I really appreciate that feeling. I'm often given extra little tasks and jobs that others may not get to do and it makes me feel important. AND I get to help teachers that are often incredibly frustrated to do their job better. While occasionally we get some that are rude or disrespectful, I also get calls from people who are incredibly appreciative of the work that I do and am told on a pretty regular basis that I must be some sort of super hero. It's a pretty spectacular feeling.
On top of both of those things, I have a really incredible family that makes me feel so incredibly loved and special. Orion is such a spectacular little boy with so much energy and joy in him that it is overwhelming at times. He is so intelligent and absorbs so much information that I have no idea how I am going to keep up. My life is better simply because he exists. And Seth ...well...how do you even explain that?
Sometimes life takes incredibly bizarre and unexpected turns and you end up someplace that you didn't expect, yet it feels exactly right. That's how it is with Seth. Two years ago I never expected to be where we are now. Five years ago I couldn't even imagine what was to come. Today, it's hard to imagine it any other way. I'm not going to try to blow smoke and pretend that things were always perfect or anything like that, but sometimes I actually believe that things happen for a reason. We've both lived and learned a lot, and it lead us to where we are now...which to me is home. I'm sure that not everyone agrees with how we've chosen to live our lives and sometimes that still bugs me, but at the same time, it is our life and I'm very happy where I am. That's what matters right? I have no idea what the future holds, but right now I know this is where I belong. I woke up in the middle of the night last night and laid in bed watching him sleep (creepy, I know). Laying next to him I realized that he is a ball of energy that makes me feel whole. The only thing I know for sure is that I somehow managed to find my way home.
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