Mental Jukebox

Today I took the time to try to track the songs that play in my head throughout the day.  It's all over the place, random, and how my brains work.  Enjoy the crazy.

Lip Gloss by Lil Mama
Kill You by Eminem
Big Poppa by Notorious B.I.G.
Airplanes by B.O.B. ft. Hayley Williams
Hoes & Ladies by Lil Wayne
Fuck you by Lily Allen
People of Walmart by Jessica Frech
Cookin by the Book by Lazytown (mashup)
Falling Away From Me by Korn
Time of My Life by David Cook
Roll Out by Ludacris
Moves like Jagger by Maroon 5
Into the Ocean by Blue October
My Heart by Paramore
Love the way You Lie by Eminem ft. Rihanna
Double Team by Tenacious D
Stupify by Disturbed
Roman's Revenge by Nicki Minaj
Crossroads by Bone Thugs
Redneck Woman by Gretchen Wilson
Dance (Ass) Remix by Big Sean ft. Nicki Minaj
Not Myself by Christina Aguilera
Don't Matter by Akon
Schizophrenia by Blue October
Anyone Else But You by Moldy Peaches

So that's what's playing in my head right now...from the time I woke up until now...at least the stuff I was able to catch.  Who needs the radio with a mental playlist like that??

Birthday!!

Today was my birthday party and what a day it turned out to be.  Tamara and JoDee were here from Wyoming and we spent most of the day lounging around the house watching movies and giggling at randomness.  We did hit up Seward for some lunch and quality time to scare the locals.  For supper we drove into town and grabbed some bbq...and I got a pretty princess birthday tiara.  It was a requirement of my celebration!

There was lots of laughter and stories at supper. Afterwords we all ended up going to a bar/pool hall to play a few games of pool.  We are all equally horrible players so it was a lot of fun.

Carra fell off the pool table, Dawn got to be my awesome pool partner, Ashley and I danced to Lady GaGa, and Tamara played cheerleader.  All in all I'm pretty sure everyone enjoyed themselves a lot more than I had originally anticipated.  It was a pretty damn good night. 

Insecurities

Insecurities.  I have about a million of them...mental, emotional, physical things that I am embarrassed about or just don't feel comfortable with.  For example...my teeth.   I hate them.  For years I've hated my smile and just the thought of having to show my teeth makes me very uncomfortable.  They are not straight, not perfectly white...and I have fangs.  No, I'm not making that up.  I have two incisors that are longer and sharper looking than the rest of my teeth giving them a very fang-like appearance.  I've used them to frighten children.  It's sad.  I've considered having them fixed, but the idea of being put back into braces is almost worse than the teeth themselves (I still have real physical scars from my first adventure there).  So for now I live with them and am trying to learn to accept them.  I'm happy again, and with that comes my smile.  For now I will try to grin and bear it (pun intended).